This week the universe seems to be screaming at me to stop being so afraid.
Just a few weeks in, I’m realizing more and more that part of the significance of this word is to help me move forward and push through my paralyzing fears.
Growing up, I was the kind of kid to whom things came easy. When it came to academics, I didn’t really have to try.
At night, I went home to a toxic environment, full of turmoil, where I lived in constant fear of saying or doing the wrong thing.
The combination of these experiences made me someone who has focused on achieving just enough while staying under the radar. Someone who wouldn’t dare be vulnerable and throw myself fully into something and risk failing.
It’s really scary to put myself out there, explore my thoughts, be vulnerable. But, it’s exactly what I feel compelled to do.
The cheesiest phrase has been floating through my mind. You don’t have to be right to write. It is something an elementary schooler could have come up with, but under the surface, it is powerful.
It is permission to mess up. To not be perfect. To try things out and see what sticks. An invitation to just empty out my brain and pour my soul on to the page.
Yesterday I listened to an episode of Elizabeth Gilbert’s podcast, Magic Lessons. Elizabeth is probably best known as the author of Eat Pray Love, but has gone on to achieve success in a number of endeavors. This was actually my first time listening, but I’m sure it won’t be the last. The entire podcast is centered around creativity and overcoming fear to create. How weird is life? This topic has been on my heart, then a friend randomly recommends an episode on Instagram (not the one I ended up listening to) and the podcast ends up being completely focused on the very thing I’m trying to unravel.
Anyway, her guest was Glennon Doyle Melton, who is a blogger turned author and basically one of the coolest people ever. She talked about starting her blog Momastery and how in the beginning it was rough around the edges, but raw and real. Glennon shared her deep-rooted need to be honest and to be seen.
There’s something about that I can really relate to.
So, here I am.
I’m sure you have something to give the world, whether it is your voice, your actions, or something else. And just in case you need it, I invite you to be messy. Take chances. Be brave. Be honest. Be real.